It’s a quarter past eight on a Friday night and this is me:
Yes, I am in bed, with my dog, because obviously I am the queen of social lives. Right now I could tell you that I’m sick, and have been all week, and so am not up to going out and partying hard with the rest of my classmates, but we all know I’m kidding no one by saying that. This tweet just further reiterates the point that though I may not be well tonight, my Friday nights are never spent being social in the actual world.
I plan to spend the rest of tonight watching Easy A and then, in the grand tradition of Georgie’s Friday Nights, reading fanfiction. My dog (Daisy, if you were wondering) loves a good chick flick.
At seventeen, I’m happy to live like this, but sometimes I wonder if my lack of a social life is the greatest factor in my lack of a love life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not one of those girls who’s desperate to have a boyfriend, but when someone asks you who you like and the first fifty names to run through your head are either famous or fictional, it can make you a bit sad. I adore celebrities and pop-culture, as all of you would know, but Draco Malfoy is never going to take me on a super romantic date. I can love Darren Criss with all of my heart, but he is never going to write a song for me. I can have a hardcore crush on Nick Jonas, but at the end of the day, he’s just not going to reciprocate.
I think a lot of my problem is that I don’t just want a high school relationship like a lot of my friends and classmates have. Well, I want a high school relationship, but I want the guy to be outrageously romantic and amazing and just like prince charming but in super attractive classmate form. Could impossible expectations possibly be another reason why I’m terminally single?
There’s a song I love by All Time Low called ‘Remembering Sunday’ and there’s a lyric in it which says:
“Even though she doesn’t believe in love, he’s determined to call her bluff”
And to me, that sums up the kind of guy I want. A guy who’s so into you, so in love with you, that he’ll do anything to make you see how amazing he is and make you fall in love with him too. Edit: I’ve just finished Easy A, and I felt like adding that I want a guy like Todd. A guy who’s just brilliant and perfect and forms his own opinions of you, no matter what the rest of the world is saying, and who will just be there for you whilst remaining super sexy. That kind of guy. End edit.
So many guys at school are just sleazy and after sex, or are just generally idiots. I know I’m generalising in a massive way here, but find me a sweet, attractive, romantic guy in high school who also happens to be single and straight, and well, I’ll be super shocked. And if you did find one, chances are he wouldn’t look twice at me due to my lack of attractiveness, my social awkwardness and my complete nerdiness. Why oh why couldn’t Charlie McDonnell be five years younger, Australian and at my high school?!
I think we should start a new TV show. Instead of The Farmer Wants A Wife, it should be The Blogger Wants A Boyfriend. Hot nerds (oxymoron?) could audition and we could go on cute dates to the library (bonus points if he’s as attractive as hot library boy in The Story Of Us) and swap fandom recommendations. Then we could bake cookies and watch Harry Potter together whilst picking apart all the stupid changes they made from the books (yep, I’m definitely sensing that unrealistic expectations is a major factor in my singledom).
I do know that one day my prince will come, and that he will be just as amazing as all my dreams. He might not come in high school (I may cry if I get to graduation and still haven’t been kissed though), and he may not tick all my boxes (I’m totally happy to bake a cake if cookies aren’t his thing), but he’ll be perfect in his own way and I just need to snuggle down in my doona and spend a few more lonely Friday nights waiting for him.
frangipani princess xoxo