I’ve been a bit (ok, a lot) of a stress head lately, worrying about everything from subject selection to what to pack for my trip and I haven’t exactly been taking the time to actually enjoy my last few days in Australia. As anyone who has ever spoken to me will confirm, I am a chronic worrier, always picturing the worst case scenario and making things out to be a zillion times worse than they really (example: I’m pretty hopeless at maths but for some weird reason I’m still in maths1. I hardly ever understand what we’re doing, and most lessons include me exasperatedly declaring “I’M SO BEING MOVED TO MATHS EIGHT!” when in all reality I’m ranked 17th in our year of 200)
I was in bed last night trying to get to sleep when a quote from 17 Again popped into my head:
When you’re young everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not; it’s just the beginning
I haven’t watched the movie in forever (but it is a great movie. Zac Efron is definitely welcome in our castle) so I have no idea why that particular quote came to me at that completely random time, but I’m glad it did. I’m sixteen for crying out loud, I need to hand over my title as queen of the molehill into mountain makers and start realising that most of the decisions I make now are irrelevent to the greater circle of my life. I’m sure in five or ten years the nights I’ve spent agonising over whether I should put Maths as my second choice in my list of back-up subjects won’t even be a memory. My life is really just getting started (if you believe the debate I so artfully won for my team in year eight, life begins at fifteen) and I need to just go with the flow and enjoy being a teenager. Freaking out over silly things like ATARs and airport stopovers and making friends will just lead to a lesser life because, as I discovered this week, excessive stress leads to unpleasant illnesses and well, being continuously on edge. I just need to remember that there are back ways into everything and when a door closes, God opens a window. And, as the picture my mum printed and stuck on my wall says, Sometimes Not Getting What You Want Is A Wonderful Stroke Of Luck.
frangipani princess xoxo