In magazines, a question they always seem to ask in interviews and vox-pops is “What is the most embarrassing song on your iPod”. The responder always says something like The Spice Girls, or N*SYNC, but they never really have anything overly embarrassing. See, if someone asked me, I have an entire playlist of songs that the majority of people in this world would be embarrassed to admit they have. It is, of course, my Wrock songs. I don’t find them embarrassing, in fact, I love them, but to most people the idea of Harry Potter themed music is laughable. If I just had to pick one song from the playlist to call my ‘most embarrassing’, it would be hard to go past “In Which Draco and Harry Secretly Want to Make Out.” As I mentioned here the song has a chorus which goes:
“And it’s Draco and Harry sitting in a tree, S-N-O-G-G-I-N-G. It’s Draco and Harry sitting in a tree, F-A-L-L-I-N-G in love”. Amazing, no?
I had it stuck in my head at school the other day, and out of habit I went to start singing it to Toong before remembering that she wasn’t there, and if I sang it to anyone at my new school, well, I’d probably never be spoken to again. It actually really got me thinking. Let’s, for a moment, eliminate Toong from my life. Let’s pretend that she and her primary school bffs had never stopped being friends, which, in turn, means we never became friends. I wonder if I’d like the Jonas Brothers as much as I do. I wonder if I’d like HP as much as I do. I wonder if I’d do things most people find creepily weird like ship Harry/Draco or James/Sirius and read fanfics. I wonder if, without her and quack to help fuel my crazy obsessions, I’d be like a regular teenager (how boring!). I’d never really thought about it before, but our friends influence us in a way that pretty much nothing else can. Let’s face it, most people don’t want to do things by themselves. I mean, I would die before I’d walk down the main street of a big town with war paint all over my face talking to a toy avocado, but with Toong and Quack, it was one of the most totally awesome things we’ve ever done.
Without my obsessions and my crazy ‘me-ness’ I’d be just like every other cookie-cutter teenager who, instead of attending HP and Dungeons and Dragons themed sweet sixteenths, attended ones with too much alcohol and regretful hook-ups. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, I’m just so happy I have friends who are happy to remain five years old with me.
I think in a way I’m afraid of being an actual ‘teenager’. I hear stories of what acquaintances get up to on weekends and at parties, and I really don’t think I could do some of that stuff. I’m not ready to let go of my childhood and my obsessions just yet. I want to hold on to Harry and JB and Disney for just a little bit longer. I have years ahead of me to be an adult, I’m grateful I have such totally awesome friends who help me to keep the little kid inside of me alive for a few more years.
I guess it’s like Harry sings in avpm, the truth is in the end, I’m pretty useless without friends. In fact, I’m alone. Just like now.
My friends are pretty much the biggest influence in my life. They have shaped me into who I am, and I love them for it. They have helped me develop my likes and dislikes, and been there through the highs and the lows. Without them (well, toong) I wouldn’t have hated prac so much it turned into something almost fun. I wouldn’t have had singalongs and disney marathons. I wouldn’t know anything about dr. who and I certainly wouldn’t have ever played laser tag in dungeons and dragons themed costumes. They have helped get me through some times I didn’t think I’d ever see the end of, and even though I live like two hours away from most of them now, I know our friendship will last forever.
Guys, if you’re reading this, you’re amazing and I love you forever. Don’t ever forget that ❤
Have your friends influenced your life in a major way?
frangipani princess xoxo